she says she loves me .. I've been trying to be considerate of her time and both her mental and physical condition .. you know she comes back from school tired , loaded with a bunch of new french words, so she is definitely not in the mood to listen to long lectures or philosophical monologues i usually start when feeling down.
she says she loves me .. does that go hand in hand with when i email her a nice short loving mail and not get a reply .. when i text her on her mobile and not get any kind of response .. she might not have credit but she does have internet, doesn't she? so is this what "i love you" is about ..
she can't be as busy as not to have the time to drop me a line .. one single line .. that's all i am asking for ..
i mean i sometimes used to go against the physics of mother earth and the solar system and extend the day 35 hours instead of doing the regular 24 just for her .. there were times when i left work for her, didn't go to work for her .. and one she was angry with me during australs .. i didn't close a lid all night long and stayed by her side till 8 in the morning on the next day just to tell her i was sorry and that i loved her ..
a line .. just one line ...
she's done a lot for me before .. that i do not deny but today's situation is different .. what counts is the here and now ..
it hurts to love somebody so much .. it's not always to adjust your expectations to reality or worst-case scenarios .. you just lose control
i hold on burning charcoal and the thing is it sticks to your flesh and you can't drop it anymore ..
maybe all of this is temporary .. maybe it'll be so good with her once i am over there that all this will be forgotten
i am thinking of you a lot .. picturing and wishing that it'll be so breath taking with you that you would wanna come back with me to munich to celebrate new years .. oh that would be unfuckingbelievably awesome ..
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